so confused.

not talking doesnt work. talking is working, but i hate it too. bc i feel like i am forcing myself to be so strong. and i cant stand it. after this weekend i was planning on not tlaking to him. but last time that didnt work. i couldnt do it. he couldnt do it. it wasnt just three years. it was the three years that you have the most experiences. its the three years where you find yourself. and part of me feels like hes in denial too, maybe even subconsciously. and  i feel he wants her just bc hse doesnt want him back. and god he so fucking stupid. shes talking to multiple guys, and he knows about it. seriously. and she has the right to say anythinggggggggggg about me? really get real. bitch stfu about me, you stole my bestfriend. and i keep saying i cant wait for orlando. but see, its so hard for me to open up. like truely open up. especially when i cant get over him. its like clearly impossible and i cant take this. i just want a hug from him right now thats all i need :/

is it weird?

that when me and dylan get in the car, or turn on the radio, whatever it may be the song “you don’t know her like i do” by brantley gilbert comes on… i just feel like crying. but i know im probably pmsing. i hat ebeing a girl.

orlando people!

idk if anyone knows about the car show this weekend? but are there any good clubs that are around that area? thank you :)

#ucf #orlando #University of Central Florida #florida #clubs

i need to i need to i need to

change my mind set again. force myself to get in my head we wont ever get back together. but its so hard to grasp. and i hate doing that to myself becuase i feel like im putting my emotions in denial. and thats not healthy. idk. why is this just so hard?

dpsinxx said: I hope you find what you're looking for in Orlando. I've been here for a year and still haven't.

i think orlando is what i need right now.

“I guess that’s what happens in the end, you start thinking about the beginning.”
– Mr. & Mrs. Smith